Gay Diarist

I just finished reading the book – From Strength to Strength: Finding Success, Happiness, and Deep Purpose in the Second Half of Life (Arthur C. Brooks, 2022). There is a sentence about friendship sticks in my mind. Adult friendship shouldn’t be left to chance. Friendship takes time and effort to maintain in the adult life. — read more

I envy people can interact with strangers well like those people can just have sex comfortably with a stranger. Sometimes, I feel it might be a good thing to myself since it stops me to do a lot of crazy stuff that’s potentially harmful to my life. — read more

Sometimes I think to myself why I feel more comfortable with older, mature men instead of guys around my age. Recently I start to realise that I feel free of responsibility and commitment with them. No one expects to have a serious relationship with the huge age gap. I don’t need to worry they expect — read more

All is Justice in God’s perfect world, and each of us has created his present destiny by his thoughts and desires and actions of the Past – to reap good where he was sown good and to reap evil where he has sown evil. For such is the Law, not of virtue and reward, not — read more

Today I work overtime because one of the vets just asked for help to query some data near the end of work. It was alright. However, my supervisor just sit at his desk until like 9 PM when I left work. He was too incompetent to help with anything but could not leave. Otherwise, he — read more

Today I try to take the initiatives to work on the task. It feels great. I think I cannot wait my supervisor to take action. Otherwise, things will be super slow in progress and not well planned. I’m responsible to every thing in my life regardless of who’s at fault. Yeah, my supervisor is incompetent, — read more

Not long ago, I learnt a term called avoidant attachment. People who lacked of emotional support during childhood might result this as the coping mechanism. I believe it’s the reason why I got this from my typical Asian parents. I fancy autonomy and independence. Also, it’s so hard for me to form a romantic, long — read more

I’m going to have my driving written test in coming July. I’m pretty excited about it. Today was Saturday, however, I was working a bit since I have a incompetent supervisor. Recently I have a anger towards him. He is a nice guy but not a good supervisor. I believe my anger coming from knowing — read more

Today is the last day of my 20s. Tomorrow, I will be 30 years old. Time flies. I wanna make some changes of my 30s. One step at a time. Yesterday, Kelvin said he really loves me. I know it pretty well. However, I don’t feel sexually attracted to him. It sounds very shallow but — read more

I went to have dinner with the Korean guy I met on Tinder. He never showed his face picture on his dating profile and while we were chatting on Line. I didn’t find him attractive when we met in person. And we didn’t really click when talking to each other. When going home after dinner, — read more