Mature Men

Sometimes I think to myself why I feel more comfortable with older, mature men instead of guys around my age. Recently I start to realise that I feel free of responsibility and commitment with them. No one expects to have a serious relationship with the huge age gap. I don’t need to worry they expect something more serious.

I want a relationship but I’m afraid of it at the same time – the fear of losing my personal space and time, the fear of emotional disturbing, the fear of commitment.

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  • Socially Awkward

    I envy people can interact with strangers well like those people can just have sex comfortably with a stranger. Sometimes, I feel it might be a good thing to myself since it stops me…

  • A Married Crush at Work

    Almost 2 years ago, I met him the first time. I felt he was excited and nervous interacting with me. It was cute. I thought a lot – the age gap, office love, silly…

  • Friendship

    I just finished reading the book – From Strength to Strength: Finding Success, Happiness, and Deep Purpose in the Second Half of Life (Arthur C. Brooks, 2022). There is a sentence about friendship sticks…

  • What Do You Want?

    How are you doing? Mr. K and Mr. R also got a boyfriend! I’m happy for them. Do I feel okay? Yes, of course. These days I have been thinking about what I want…

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