Gay Diarist

How are you doing? Mr. K and Mr. R also got a boyfriend! I’m happy for them. Do I feel okay? Yes, of course. These days I have been thinking about what I want in life. Do I want to change my job? I do think about it! But them I’m thinking the reason I want to change the job. Is it for more money? More control or social status? More workload? More Changes to show of my abilities? Do I want a stable or challenging work? But why di I want the work to be challenging? To feel that I’m growing. I can do a lot of things outside work to feel growing. Why does it has to be work? For social expectation? How can I escape this kind of mindset? I have a lot of things to do. I love aesthetic stuff, e.g. a great handwriting! A great painting! A great use of language. An elegant man! A great manner. A great work. Things with style. Simple but neat. Maybe focus on those things? Do you agree with me? Hehe🧡