Gay Diarist

Sometimes I think to myself why I feel more comfortable with older, mature men instead of guys around my age. Recently I start to realise that I feel free of responsibility and commitment with them. No one expects to have a serious relationship with the huge age gap. I don’t need to worry they expect something more serious.

I want a relationship but I’m afraid of it at the same time – the fear of losing my personal space and time, the fear of emotional disturbing, the fear of commitment.